Sunday, February 22, 2009

Path of determination

When I was younger I took pride
In determined pursuit 
Of perverse ideas about virtue
That could stop my fear
Dead in its tracks
Because I'm doing what's right 
And if at first you don’t succeed
And love conquers all
And so on and so on.

But in time the bright colours
Of wide-eyed ideals
Bled together 
Became a grim-faced, grey stare 
At a dog-eat-dog world
Where strength survives
And the victor gets the spoils
So change of plans then 
To rush head down at fears
Throw my weight, knock them aside
A bigger dog now

But in time
Notions of winning 
Were hardened by anger
Because the best defense is a strong offense
And you don’t get mad you get even
And it’s every man for himself
And I watched as my anger fattened
On rotting grapes 
Until the day it staggered up and flexed
Turned toward my fears 
promised them safety 
And the two ran off and last I heard
They're still with each other to this day. 



BK